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This blog is about me, slave underling, my dreams, my desires, my fantasies. BDSM is an important part of my life, but not the only part. There are other things, which are important to me. And you are not going to learn about those.

You will learn about my desires and preferences. There are many other people with very different desires. As long as it is between consenting and responsible adults, I do not want to pass judgment. And i do not see my preferences as superior to those of others.

BDSM for me is a secret realm, to which i retreat, when i feel the need to do so, and where i can be free to follow my desires. I am a straight heterosexual male and whenever i enter that world my role is that of a slave. This blog will tell you about this other side of my life.

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This is about me and my journey into BDSM. And of course it is an ADULT PAGE. If you have not yet reached the age which according to the laws of your country allows you to view adult content, please go away. And if you are not interested in BDSM or if you feel insulted by nudity or explicit language, this blog also is not for you. Otherwise you are most welcome.

This is a fantasy. As far as i know, no such institution does exist. And probably setting up an institution like this would not be possible, whether for legal or other reasons (there may not be enough inmates to keep it afloat). But sometimes it is exciting to let the fantasy fly. I will nevertheless try to keep it from being too outlandisch and will try for some degree of realism.

The idea is to have a Prison Camp for those who want to submit under a harsh regime of humiliation and punishment. That camp will have a very harsh regime and onlt those really ready to submit to abusive and degrading treatment should apply. Nevertheless it wold try to stay on the right side of the law. Therefore it would only accept people who submit themselves voluntarily

It should be in a country with a warm climate and a legal system, that does noti ntrude into other peoples hobbies, even if they are quite extreme. The minimum stay would be 72 hours, but longer stays would also be possinle (and in fact preferred). Treatment would be harsh, but lasting physical damage has to be avoided. Therefore some medical supervision would be necessary.

The Camp would need to be in a remote area, well secluded. There would probably be an outer perimeter fence, to prevent utsiders from getting close to where the action is. But theren would also bee an inner perimeter fence, to keep inmates from escaping. It should be realistic, barbed wire, maybe dogs roaming outside the fence. 

Once the candidates have applied, their application will be checked, fakes been weeded out and proof of health has to be provided. Then they have to sign a contract for a specified period. The stay should only be terminated before the end of that period for health reasons. Of course they have always the right to get out for whatever reason. Anything else would be illegal. Pn order to make it a bit difficult, though one could insert a clause which would allow the Administrators of the Camp to publish pictures of those inmates, which have been made during their stay (and showing their faces ) all voer the internet. And there will be many pictures. One could also request them to pay a hefty guarantee sum to discourage them. They would forfeit that money, if they were to leave prematurely. 

Posted by slave underling @ 22-07-2011 21:53:31
What fascinates me, being a slave is the loss of control (within, one always has to add, the agreed limits). The slave's body becomes a plaything for the Mistress (or Master). This becomes very obvious, when the slave is whipped or otherwise physically abused. But in a more somewhat more subtle, but equally strong way, it becomes clear, when simply being touched. It was driven home to me in one session, where i had to stand (completely naked, of course) in front of my Mistress for a physical inspection. She touched my balls lightly. She neither wanted to inflict pain, nor to arouse me. She simply wanted to se, whether i had shaved my balls properly. As a slave you can be touched in any way and anywhere the Mistress wants, even your most private parts.
Posted by slave underling @ 12-08-2010 04:22:45

To be barefoot is, from my point of view, a logical extension of forced nudity. And it is in itself humiliating, especially if the Mistress wears boots or high heel pumps. There are some situations, where footwear might be unavoidable for the slave, especially outdoors. But i would say, that footwear is only warranted, if there is a serious danger of injury. Mere discomfort from walking over a rough surface is no reason to allow a slave footwear. It is rather an extra reason to deny it, because the discomfort will be a consant reminder to the slave of his/her lowly state.


Posted by slave underling @ 09-08-2010 05:24:00
Some beating is nearly always part of a session, but on that certain day i got an expecially good thrashing. After being ordered to strip naked, the Mistress first strapped me on a bench decorating my dick and my balls with needles and then pulling them out again. It was actually not as painfull as i had imagined. Then i was locked in a cell, while the Mistress had a cup of tea. When she had finished i was led back into the dungeon for a second round. This time, she told me gleefully, she would try a number of whipping instruments. She certainly had a good number of whips, in different shapes and sizes I was made to stand in front of that bench and then had my hand cuffed to the far side of it., so that i could not stand upright, but presented her my slave arse. All in all i spent about an hour exposed to her whips. And it was obvious, that she enjoyed it. It started with a flogger, but in between she used also bullwhips and other nasty mplements. She took her time and made sure, that she took me to my limits and kept me there. The whole time she talked to me, describing the different whips, their impact and how much she liked it to whip me. There was nothing for me to do, but enduring whatever she wanted to mete out. It was one of the more unforgettable ecperiences!
Posted by slave underling @ 07-08-2010 07:30:57

I love high heels, especially black high heel pumps. Not for myself, of course, because i am no crossdresser. But i most certainly love them, if women wear those shoes. I fantasize about kneeling naked in front of a woman, hands cuffed behind my back, kissing her feet, licking her heels or having her heels pressed into my balls.

Posted by slave underling @ 06-08-2010 05:03:00

This scenario actually sounds more like fun for the slave. And maybe it is. But that is not important. What is important, is that it is fun for the Ladies. And it is another good way to show the slave, that he is under total control, not just his slave body, but also what would normally be his most intimate feelings and activities.

The Mistress should invite a few Girl Friends for a relaxed evening. In the middle of the room there should be a table, where the slave can be secured, ideally spreadeagled, lying on his back, so that his cock and balls are well exposed. The slave is, of course, naked. When he is led into the room, there should be first an extended greeting ceremon, properly greeting the guests, kissing their feet. And the Guestsshould have the opportunity to grett the slave, too, by groping him or slapping him. Then the slave is secured on the table. He should be immobilised. Finally a female slave is led into the room. If no female slave is available, a prostitute can be rented, but a female slaveslut would be better. She will be naked, too, of course. Essentially the slave slut now will engage the slaveboy in all kind of sexual manners. The only thing not allowed is for  the slaveboy to fuck her,  because slaves (including slaveboys) do not fuck, they only get fucked. But this still lives a lot of room for other dirty things, blowjob, handjob, footjob, the slaveboy should please the slave slut also, by licking her. The Mistress and her Guests will tell those two horny slave pgs exactly what to do. They will order the action they want to see. Any disobedience will be punished. The Ladies, if they want so,  can come close to observe the action better. They can make pictures. If they want so, can push the slaves physically into the required position, they can grope them, wherever they want and however they want. They should comment very candidly on the action.

The slaveboy must not come, before he is allowed to do so. Because slave pigs cannot be relied on to control themsemselves, the Ladies should not hesitate, to seperate the two physically, if the slaveboy comes to close.

 When they have seen enough, the ywill order to slaveboy to jerk off. The cum will have to be swallowed, by either of them or by both. The whole scene should ideally be filmed. The Mistresses can wear masks, but why allow this privacy to the slaves? Taking away their privacy away completely, after all, is what this scene is about.

Posted by slave underling @ 11-07-2010 06:45:29

Pain for me is a bit a tricky issue. Being subjected to pain is for me an important part of being a slave. But while i am very submissive, i am not into pain as such. Just feeling pain is for me as unpleasant as for most other people. So in that sense i am not really a masochist. Pain becomes important for me, when it is part of my subjugation and degradation. There is hardly anything more humiliating, than having anoher person inflicting pain to you at will. So, within the agreed limits) pain becomes an important part of the game for me, be it as part of training (to make the slave behave in a certain way), as punishment (because the slave has not behaved properly) ot just because the dominant likes to inflict pain.

If you read BDSM personals you can often find subs or masochists boasting of having no limits. In most cases i wonder, whether that is actually true.I certainly have limts, and they are somewhere in the medium range. These limits can vary. What i can take depends on how i feel that day. But they depend also on how the Mistress approaches me. If i feel overwhelmed from the very beginning, i will find it more difficult to take it. Better for me to be led carefully to the limits, which then can be expanded. Important is also trust. If i feel, that the Mistress knows, what she is doing, i am also more ready to have my limits pushed. The best sessions i had, where with Mistresses, who made it obvious, how much pleasure they got out of abusing me. In those cases i always tried to tolerate as much as possible in order to please them.

Posted by slave underling @ 10-07-2010 06:59:00

That is one fantasie i sometimes have. So far (fortunately?) it has not yet become reality. I am in the dungeon with my regular Mistress. I have been with her several time and during one session she has interrogated me thoroughly. I am with her again, having already received a good, hard whipping. Now i am chained naked to an iron pillar. My neck collar is fastened to that pillar, my hands are chained behind my back and behind that pillar. My feet are chained. The chain is quite short and runs behind that pillar, so that i cannot properly stand. I am gagged, my nipples are clamped and and my balls tightly bound. My Mistress smiles at me, content with her work. 'And now I have a surprise for you, slaveboy.'

She calls somebody to come in, and there she enters the room: a Women i know quite well. I don't really like her, she has been always rather cool and haughty. But somehow i feel attracted to her. I must have mentioned this to my Mistress, when she was interrogating me. That Woman enters with a dazzling smile, looking at me and obviously enjoying that sight. Normally dressing rather casually, she wears a short dark blue dress and fairly high heeled shoes. My Mistress greets her and gives her the dungeon keys. 'He is all yours.' Then she leaves. That Women locks the door and turns towards me, with an evil grin. She comes closer, very close, the fabric of her dress touching my naked slave body. I can feel her smell. I would like to run, but there is no way out for me. She strokes my dick and teases my balls with her fingernails. I do not want it, but i get hard. Then she grabs my balls and squeezes them very hard. I shriek. 'You have heard it, asshole. You are all mine.' She turns around and fetches a cane.

Posted by slave underling @ 26-06-2010 06:11:22

I am occasionally visiting Professional Mistresses. And i have to say, i have always encountered competent Women, who provided a good service. Nervetheless, the experienes felt very different. One of the issues i had to think about a lot, was how they perceived me (and my ability to take their treatment and especially pain). A number of Mistresses expressed their satisfaction and told me afterords, that it was fun to have me under their thumbs and do nasty things to me and that i had responded well. In a few other instancesthings did not go that well, those Ladys seemed to be somehow disappointed, that i was not ready or able to take more. It was not, that there was anything wrong with those Ladies. Somehow we did not really establish the kind of mutual understanding, which really makes a session fun. The sparks were not flying. And that has probably as much to do with me, as it has with them.

The interesting thing is, that the positive responses came from those Mistresses, who unabashedly confessed being sadists and to enjoy torturing slaves. And it was not just said to please me. I could feel, how they enjoyed having me at their mercy. I felt, that they understood me and my reactions and i had the feeling, i understood them. In one case the Mistress spent actually more time with me than originally intended, because, as she told me afterwards, it was fun for her to have me down in her dungeon. I do not caim, that i am a tough guy who can take a lot of pain, While i can take quite some pain, i have limits.  Interestingly enough with those Sadists i felt i could take more.

It is difficult to analyse all the reasons, why you feel better with one person, and not so good with another. The same goes for the Mistress - slave interaction in the dungeon, especially given the relatively short time, you spend there togother. But two aspects i have discovered. In those cases, where i felt, that it did not go too well, the Ladies came with full force ringht from the beginning, before a kind of mutual understanding was established, i felt somehow overwhelmed. One aspect relates to the punishment for mistakes. In those cases, i think especially of two sessions, the Ladies punished me a lot for mistakes, which i committed because i was not yet sure, what was actually expected from me. Now one could say, that this is the right of a Mistress. But i found that for building up a Mistress - slave relationship and the mutual understanding and trust, whch i consider quite important, it is better to establish clear rules first and to educate and train the slave with those rules. If he doesn't follow them, then of course, he should be punished hard. That was the approach taken by those Sadists, who somehow seemed more secure in their role. The simply assumed, that i would be ready to submit to their orders (which i was), told me, what to do and with whom i would not have dared to take any chance to make them cross. Altogether they seemed not only to be more secure and confident in their roles, but also more authentic. Those Ladies did not play games, what they did to me, was the real thing. That was another reason, why that "you broke the rules, and now i have to punish you' thing' felt a bit strange to me, when no clear rules had yet been established. It was a bit like role-playing, looking for a pretext to make you feel pain. A Sadist does not need a pretext. She (or He) tortures you, simply because she wants to, because it pleases her. The slave becomes the object of her pleasure. And as a submissive soul that gives me deep satisfaction. And that mutual satisfaction is a good basis, from which the sparks can start to fly. I am not really into pain as such, i am into submission. But the infliction of physical pain is a very strong form degradation, in that regard it turns me on.

The second aspect concerned the fact, that those Sadists simply seemed to know more about the technical aspects of inflicting pain and the impact on their victim. In the three sessions, which i enjoyed most, all those Ladies started well below my endurance threshhold and then escalated until they reached this threshhold, and then they tried slowly and carefully to expand those limts. That was a great sensation and the fact, that i felt their satisfaction and my desperate desire to be a good slave, encouraged me to take more pain (to suffer for my Mistress), than i would otherwise have been able to. An important issue here was also the feeling, that i could absolutely trust them. That they knew at every stage exactly, what they were doing, and that they would not do anything to cause me grievous harm.

Posted by slave underling @ 12-06-2010 05:41:00

Yes, i absolutely do believe, that the submissive/slave should always have the right to abort the scene. Any unambiguous declaration to this extent should do. The problem of course is, that begging for mercy might as well be part of the scene and it may be difficult for the Dominant in some situations to know, whether the slave really wants the scene to be terminated (or whether the slave just gets turned on by begging). A safe word has the advantage to be unambiguous. It is a kind of insurence police, which you are glad is there, but which you don't really want to use, unless you have to.

Another thing is, for me at least, the possibility to control the scene itself. Some people use the 'traffic light': green for 'go on, everything is fine', yellow for 'slow down', red for 'stop right now'. I did it once and it felt very strange, just as if there was a hidden button, with which i could control the degree of pain. Because for me being a slave for a period of time is about loosing control, i did not like it very much. While there always has to be the right to abort the scene, i do not want to have a say in what the Mistress is doing to me.

Having said that, there needs of course to be communication in the Dungeon. The Dominant needs to be aware, how the slave feels (emotionally and physically). But while the Dominant of course has the responsibility for the wellbeing of the slave, it is up to her/him, what conclusions she/he draws. An experienced Dominant will of course watch the body language of the slave, but (unless the slave is gagged) there should also be verbal communcation. I prefer, if it fits the character of the relationship. If i feel good, i like to say things like 'there is no place, where i'd rather be now, than here under your boots'. If things get tough, begging for mercy is one way to express it. But i think it is also good to react to pain, to moan or to cry out, to whimper etc (very important if the slave is gagged). That gives the Dominant a feedback about the impact of her/his actions. 

One could say now, that in effect, that is not too different from the traffc light, it is just, that one uses different codes. But for me there is another important difference. While i want the Mstress to know, how i feel, that does not mean, that she has to react like expected. Even if i indicate, that i had enough of a whipping, she might think otherwise. And an experienced Mistress will know very well, how far she can go. These sessions, where the slave feels, that he can trust the Mistress, but that he will not be able to control her actions, for me always have always been the most remarkable.

Posted by slave underling @ 09-06-2010 05:41:11
No, i am not a switch. And, no, i am not into dominating women. It is just, that i am fascinated by the idea of submission and (consensual) enslavement itself. Therefore i like to see other slaves being subjugated, degraded and abused, just asi myself like to be. When i see pictures of naked slavegirls being tied up, chained, (eb)used, i do not fantasize being their tormentor, i rather fantasize being there together with them, another slave in the dungeon. 
Posted by slave underling @ 09-06-2010 05:00:56

The answer is quite simple: However she likes it. She decides, what the slave is going to wear (ideally nothing but his collar and his chains. but otherwise stark naked). And she will of course decide, what she is going to wear. A slave should have no say in that. Of couse i have my own preferences for a Mistress' clothes: a short and tight blackdress and high heeled shoes. But as a slave i also have to be aware, that i have no say in it. If the Mistress prefers comfortable clothes (jeans, t-shirt, sneakers) that is, what it will be. With a Pro-Domme most likely you are going to see her in some kind f fetish wear. But again, as far as i am concerned, as a slave that is really nothing of my business.

 

Posted by slave underling @ 07-06-2010 20:23:22

In real life i am a rather well behaved person. But when it comes to BDSM i prefer to call a spade a spade, a fuck is a fuck, and not intercourse, a cock is a cock and a cunt is a cunt (why would one call them genitals). And as a slave i like to be called demeaning and degrading names, slave pig is a nice one, slave worm another one. But slave boy is not so bad either. It is not dirty per se, but since i am not so young anymore, it nicely shows my place. A slave has no right to respect, so why not forget about conventional norms and use language, too, to show the filthy slave pig his place (at the deepest bottom of the rung or even lower than that).

It depends, of course, on the Mistress. Some simply do not like to talk dirty, but if a Mistress likes to degrade me also verbally, wonderful!

Posted by slave underling @ 07-06-2010 05:53:07

As you certainly know by bow, forced nudity is one of the things, which really turns me on. So allow me, to give a more systematic description, what it is about.

Forced Nudity means, that a person is either ordered to undress or forcibly undressed and then has to stay in that nude state, while others remain dressed. Ths is quite different from nudity in a nudist setting, where one can assume, nudity is voluntary and where all are nude.

Historically forced nudity has not generally be a pattern for slaves (although there may have been dress restrictions according to the specific time and place), except for situations, where that has been practical, e.g. during auctions, when it was desirable to check the body of the slave, one wanted to urchase. But it has often featured in the treament of prisoners,  of course during torture, to access all parts of the prisoner's body freely, but also when keeping him or her in the dungeon. Because of its demeaning and degrading effects, it can be considered an additional punishment. While one might associate this kind of treatment with bygone times, it contines until today, as the furor about the treatment of Iraqi prisoners in Abu Ghraib by US forces has made obvious. Because of its humiliating and degrading character it is generally considered nowadays as an infringement of Human Rights when used on prisoners against their will.

It appears, though, to be quite popular in the BDSM communty, at least among some people. Forced Nudity can be used in a session, but can also be part of a long-term relationship. There again it can be limited to certain situations or in its most rigorous form be used on the submssive, whenever the situation allows (when not in public or in the presence of people, who are not supposed to know). Permanent forced nudity probably is not possible because reasons of practicability and because of decency laws in most places (no nudity in public).

One reason to keep the submssive nude may be sexual attraction on part of the Dominant. But in many cases the main reason is probably to point out and underline the very low status of the sub/slave by forcing him or her to be naked in the presence of others, who are dressed. Another issue is practicability, when it is intended to inflict hysical pain on the sub, because all body parts are accessible. Nudity may be forced on the slave in different situations. He/she can be alone, locked away in a cell or a cage. The sub can be in the presence of the Master or the Mstress, or he/she can be in the presence of more than one other person when the other Dominants would be clothed, while other submssives present mght also be nude.

Posted by slave underling @ 05-06-2010 11:39:00

This idea i got from a book, where a gang was punishing one of their own by making him standing naked in the middle of the room for an extended period of time. A small rectangle had been painted on th floor, in which he had to position hs feet. He was not allowed to step outside that rectangle. The nice thing is, that as time passes by discomfort for the slave will slowly build up and continue to grow, without any need for the Dominant to do anything. She (or he) can just contine to do whatever she wanted to do.

I had it spiced up by having to stand on a punshment board. This was a simple home-made device, just smoe piece of plywood, glue and lots of srew-bolds on it. It was very uncomfortable to stand there. Fortunately i did not have to do it for a long tme. I do not know, whether the feet can be damaged if you do it for too long. So just be carefull if you want to try it out. But it certainly is a nice little slow torture device.  

Posted by slave underling @ 04-06-2010 07:43:00

As you may have guessed by now, i am fascinated by some pretty hard stuff. But two things are important for me. SM should not involve life/threatening practises or practises, that seriously damage the health of the slave. Snuff or mutilation do not even fascinate me as a fantasy, i rather find that repugnant. A second, very important issue, which one has to keep in one"s mind when reading about my dreams and fantasies, is, that a BDSM relation has to be between consenting adults. Whatver consenting adults do to each other (within the limts outlined above), should be there business. And as long as it involves no serious damage to the ealth of the slave, that can certainly also include fairly hard and demeaning practises. That at least works for me. 

Consent eans, that the Dominant and the slave agree about the general framework in which the scenario takes place (and that would include taboos and hard limits). And the slave would always retain the right to abort the session. But it doesn't actually mean, that the slave has to agree to everything, the Dominant does (within the agreed limts). For me the actual loss of control is one of those things turning me on. And that would include being subjected to a pretty harsh and demeaning treatment.

Posted by slave underling @ 04-06-2010 05:17:00

Probably quite a good number of submissives are interested in scenarios, where they are kept as prisoners. I certainly am one of those. And an increasing number of Pro Dommes offer facilities, where slaves can be kept as prisoners for a period of time, ranging from a few hours to a number of days. So far, as much as i like it, i have only managed to get myself locked away for a few hours. A prison stay means confinement. The prisoner is locked away and quite ften also shackled. He is not supposed to do anything but staying quietly in his cell. A prison stay will also probably involve solitude. Safely locked away and possibly secured with chains or straps the prisoner can be left to himself, contemplating the state he is in. The prison stay can of course be combined with some discipline, punishment or physical abuse.  

In order to provide a realistic environment the Dominant needs of course some space, isolated enough to lock the prisoner away. It should also be safe, so that the prisoner cannot escape. A cellar or a basement would probably be most appropriate. For longer stays one also has to think about some toilet facilities, although sometimes they are limited to a bucket, which the prisoner has to clean every morning.

But if the conditions are right a prison stay offers more and better means to create a very realstic scenario. The longer period of time means, that the slave cannot just hope for the time to pass. A 48 hours stay probably feels quite different from a one or two-hours session. The isolation of the prison environment gives the Mistress (or Master) a better opportunity to break the slave: harsher physical abuse, isolation, loss of sense of time, etc.

Even simply staying in the cell can be manipulated in a way that the slave feels his utter defenselessness and helplessness, and can be an additional punishment: being kept naked manipulating the temperature (a bit to cold or a bit to warm),  securing him in an uncomfortable position, etc.

All that contributes to the prison stay feeling more realistic than an ordinary session. If, as is the case with me, the loss of control is what turns the slave on, then a prison stay under the control of the Mistress is certainly the right thing to experience.

Posted by slave underling @ 03-06-2010 17:21:21

Strictly speaking, a slave doesn't really need to be humiliated, because he is already among the lowest of the low. What is needed is to remind him of his state and make him to adapt to this state. Put in praxis it amounts to the same thing.


 

Posted by slave underling @ 03-06-2010 04:30:00

This sounds simple enough, but comes with a twist. One needs two slaves, of whom at least one needs to be male slave, because his cock is going to be sucked by the other slave, who can be either male or female. The Mistress (or Master) determines a period of time within which the cocksocking slave has to make the other slave cum. The other slave of course is strictly forbidden to jerk off within this period of time. The nice thing is, either way you will have a winner and, more important, a loser. The loser of course will be severely punished.

The slave, who gets his cock sucked, should  preferably be tied or chaind to the wall or a pole, but if you do it in your living room, just have him standing in the middle of the room, hands secured behind his back. The other slave should kneel before him. His/her hands should also be tied or cuffed behind the back. This is to prevent the cocksucker using the hands. Giving head is probably experienced to be more humiliating, and humiliation is, what it is about.

The period of time the cocksucker has to fulfill the task should be set by the Mstress, because there are considerable differences between slaves in how long it takes for a slave to jerk off. But also for the slave it will depend, whether he is aroused or has for example been milked shortly before. The Mistress of course do not need to be fair, if she wants to disadvantage one slave by setting a very short or very long time limit, that's up to her.

She can reward the winner, but then, why should she? Not being punished would be reward enough and implementing orders is what a slave is supposed to do. But by all means she has to punsh the loser. It is important that the punishment is harsh enough to encourage both slaves to give their very best.

The Mistress can have this little contest just for herself. But then, why not invite a few guests, who are interested in Domination and humiliating slaves. Having a relaxed evening, watching two naked slaves giving, respectively receiving a blowjob, while certainly not enjoying themselves, certainly must be quite entertaining. And watching the punishment afterwards could be fun, too.

Posted by slave underling @ 13-05-2010 07:17:54
To make it very clear i do not want to (nor am i able to) live BDSM 24/7. If you search the internet and see the various definitions and categories (sub, bottom, slave) then that would probably disqualify me. It seems that at least for some people a slave is somebody who submits fully (and fulltime) to a dominant partner. And this of course is not how i live. For me BDSM is the secret space i enter to realize my dreams. But i do not stay there indefinitely. When i enter, though, i prefer it the hard way. And that is why i call me 'slave', because this exemplifies the very low status i am happy with. Of course i do have taboos, but even so whenever i enter this secret space i want to have an experience which is as close to the real thing (being a lowly slave) as feasable and legally possible.
Posted by slave underling @ 13-05-2010 01:38:23

One thing i really love is being handcuffed, preferably with the hands on the back. This makes the slave vulnerable and defenseless.


Posted by slave underling @ 10-05-2010 22:04:00

I may offend some dominant Ladies, but i do not believe in female superiority as a general concept. Of course there are dominant Ladies, whom slaves like me want to serve. But most women probably do not care about BDSM one way or the other. Others, who are moving within the BDSM world, may view themselves as submissives. On the other hand there are also men who consider themselves to be Masters. And in the end it depends on every single person, whether and in which role he or she wants to enter the BDSM realm. Therefore the real difference is not between men and women but, whether a person is a submissive/slave or a Mistress/Master.

Now what does that mean for me? I am looking for women, of course, whom I can serve, but i do not have a problem accepting that there are female slaves as well as Masters. There wouldn't be  any problems for me to serve together with a female slave. Serving a male Dominant is an other issue, though . Any form of sexual use by a Master would be a hard limit for me, nor would iapproach a Master for training. But there might be a situation where i am in the presence of a Mistress, but where a male Dominant is also present. That could be in a private setting or on an SM party. While, as the property of the Lady, i would not expect the other Dominants (male or female) to use me without the explicit permission of my Mistress, i would still be obliged to show all other Dominants, including male ones, the respect demanded from a lowly slave, like being paraded naked or assuming an apprpriate position, like kneeling with my head bowed for example.

Posted by slave underling @ 10-05-2010 21:35:00

It is over a year now, that i went there, but it was a remarkable experience. I went to a professional Mistress, who had a reputation of being very consequent and strict. And one really could feel, that that she had fun, making her slaves suffer. She was an unabashed sadist. Better still, her house, which was quite isolated, had a nice cellar which had been converted into a torture chamber with a prison cell to hold slaves in between tortures. After having been ordered to strip naked I was taken down there and wouldn't get out again for the whole afternoon.

After having been subjected to some pretty harsh treatment i was visibly exhausted and close to my limits. But that Lady was having her fun and was reluctant to let me go just then. She gave me some rest, in the prison cell, naked, with a chain secured to the wall. Then she left me alone for a while, and there i was.

The place was dark and dank, and even if i had wanted, there would have been no way out of there. I had a steel collar around my neck, which was secured with a chain to the wall. The door to the cell was locked, and the door of the torture chamber, through which one would have had to pass, was locked, too. But that was fine with me. I was always fascinated by the thought of being locked away. And now i got a taste of it.

The Lady left me alone for quite some time. But when she returned, it became immediately clear, that she had now intention to go soft on me. I was forced down on all fours, hands and feet were chained, but the chains were long enough, to allow me to crawl. Then I had to crawl out of the cell into the torture chamber, where my neck collar was secured with a fairly long chain to a steel pole. My balls were tied very tightly and the cord was then fastened to the foot chain, to make even crawling around uncomfortable.

And finally the Lady gave me my task. She had brought a bag with crown caps from i do not know how many bottles and was throwing them all over the room. She told me, that i would have to collect them. For each one i would miss, i would get five lashes. As if that had not been difficult enough she put a teelight candle on my back and told me gleefully, that if the candle would slide from my back, that would earn me additional 100 lashes. And then she left me alone. I was really scared, because i knew, that this Lady was very serious about it. Somehow it started feeling like the real thing, if i ever had felt like a client down there, certainly that was not any longer the case.

Fulfilling the task i had been given (and not loosing the fucking tealight) had now become the most important thing on earth for me. All my thoughts were concentrated on that. At least i managed to keep the tealight on my back. But while the chain was long enough to allow me to reach most parts of the room, I couldn't get into all corners. That was not exactly fair. But then, as a slave you are hardly in a position to complain about that.

Anyway, it was quite exhausting, but i got most of those bloody corks. But some i missed. That earned me 75 lashes. The Lady chained me to that pole and then administered a good beating. Actually i got 80 lashes, but of course i did not dare to complain, because that only would have earned me more.

The most important thing was not the pain, but that for at least a few moments mentally i had started turning into a real slave, with the only thing occupying my mind not to annoy my Mistress. It was a glimpse into the sadomaso hell, and i loved it.

Posted by slave underling @ 10-05-2010 05:15:02

A slave was requiring about the proper dress code for an SM party. The webmaster responded: 'Why don't you come naked. That's how we like our slaves.'  I couldn't agree more. For me and my being a slave full nudity (includes being barefoot) is essential.

I am not an exhibitionist. In my 'normal' life I am rather coy in this regard. But once i enter the BDSM world being naked (while the dominants of course are clothed in whatever way they like) for me is essential. You might think: Oh, CFNM (clothed females, nude males). But for me it is a bit more than that. First, if I were serving together with female slaves I would expect them to be naked, too. While in a situation where male Dominants are present, as a slave i still would consider myself required to be naked.

Besides, the nudity of a slave is not primarily about sex. (although it makes it easier of course to sexually use the slave, if the Dominant so desires). Many slaves might not have bodies, which are sexually attractive to their dominant Partners, but are still kept naked. It is primarily about humiliation. It makes the (very low) position of the slave clear. In a society where being clothed is the normal thing to do, being forced to be naked in the presence of others, who are fully clothed, gives a very powerful message. The choice of clothing expresses your personality. Taking that option avay from you, diminishes you somehow, as it befits a lowly slave.

 In a 24/7 setting, this of course would not always be possible. But in an encounter of a few hours or even a few days itshould be.

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Posted by slave underling @ 10-05-2010 05:06:00
This is me, slave underling. For a long time i have wondered, how i could share my dreams and interests with those, who might be interested. I have decided, that this is the way. I have been interested in BDSM for a long time and always have seen myself as a slave. So, here i am, slave underling.
Posted by slave underling @ 09-05-2010 16:07:00

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